It’s official, I have crested the hill. Yesterday, I received my welcome to AARP mailing a few days early. I don’t turn 50 until next week. Yes, I am holding on to these few remaining days on this side of the hill. I’m not sure how turning 50 is going to hit me. I have not had a traumatic birthday since turning 20. For some reason, 20 hit me like a ton of bricks. Turning 30 not so much. I was more concerned with passing my college finals to worry. Yes, I went to college at the age of 28 with 4 little children in tow but that is a different story to tell. Back to turning 50, some days I see it as a wonderful milestone as so many of my friends did not make it to see 50. Other days I see it as the first step toward the end, as many of the women in my family die in their early 70’s. This first 50 has flown by in a blink hoping the next years go a little slower.
On another note, I heard that Janet Jackson is pregnant for the first time. She turns 50 a week after me. Congratulations to her but girl, this could not be me. I can not even imagine starting a family now. I am so glad I did that in my 20’s when I had way more energy. I am looking forward to having some grandchildren one day. *hint to my kids*